WORDS...mine have been lacking lately. I haven't published a blog post in almost 6 weeks. That is not the best strategy for building a following. But sometimes I need to be quiet and listen instead of speaking and getting my point across.
Earlier today, I heard 2 songs that caught my attention. The 1st was "Words" by Hawk Nelson and the 2nd was "Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) by Hillsong United. I love the song "Oceans". You should see me or hear me when I belt it out in the car. It's been out awhile and can still almost bring me to tears. It is just powerful.
So what do the 2 songs have to do with each other? Well, I guess I just wrote it, power. Words are powerful. Hence songs are powerful. I don't want to write and post blogs just to push out content. There needs to be purpose and meaning. I was struck and humbled by the lyrics of both of these songs tonight and just wanted to share what is on my heart.
' Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.'
The 1st 2 phrases of the song "Words" by Hawk Nelson are:
"They've made me feel like a prisoner
They've made me feel set free
They've made me feel like a criminal
Made me feel like a king
They've lifted my heart
To places I'd never been
And they've dragged me down
Back to where I began"
Does that resonate with you like it does me? Are you thinking of a time being in a new relationship or maybe an unhealthy parent/guardian situation? Or something you said yesterday at Christmas? Yes. Yes. And, yes. If I let the words get stuck in my head they make their way to my heart and can seep into the rest of my daily life. No thank you. God's Word has changed me and the way I handle the attacks of words on me or from me which can also boomerang and do double duty.
It has been a long journey and one that I am still on but something that helps me is the awareness of boundaries. I need to have boundaries to stay emotionally healthy.
If I am the one who said something wrong, then I need to confess that to God and maybe to someone as well. The most important thing I have to do is make peace with the fact that I can't take it back and to accept forgiveness, particularly from God. Satan has used guilt to trip me up for years. It would mess with relationships and cause a lot of overthinking.
An example would be that I said something at Christmas, maybe overshared, it wasn't gossip and it wasn't specifically hurtful to anyone but when I look back on it, I wonder if there was any good of it. Ephesians 4:29 says to only speak what is good for building up. Did what I say bring grace or honor to anyone? Not so much. I felt a bit of shame and so instead of dwelling on it, I went to God in prayer and confessed my words and I took consideration for my motives of what was said.
Next song I heard was "Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) and there is a vulnerability about that entire song that I need and love. I want to have "trust without borders". I want to step out of the boat and walk with Jesus. But how?
Be in the Word
I need to prioritize being in the Holy Word of God. In the moments of crisis and EVERYDAY. If I don't have that foundation, I'm going to crumble. For years, I was not in the Word daily and I wasn't growing much. For the last 2 years I have been following the First5 app from Proverbs 31 Ministries and it is daily during the week and has a weekend wrap up. That has been wonderful for me.
Instead of running to a friend to vent, I have made a shift to run to God in prayer. I pray constantly even when I don't fit it into an official format. I believe that the Holy Spirit knows what I intend for God. When I am praying in a more structured manner, I make it a point to thank God for something before I complain. This has been for a few years and has really helped me to see how amazingly blessed I am.
Worship. Go to church when you don't feel like it. Listen to Air1 or KLove in the car. SING. Let go of the control and let God have your heart. Pray. Read the Psalms. Serve. Give. Love.
It's not fake. It's not a waste. You may be in the deepest scariest waters and you can't see your hand in front of you but reach out anyways. Reach out to God! He is there.
So, maybe there is not a strong connection without a backstory but for me I guess it is simply that I want to use my words on this blog to be worthy of the calling of the best gift ever given, Jesus.
We just celebrated Christmas and I've been loving how my 4 year old daughter has been speaking of the miracle and mystery of Jesus. She really understands Jesus is the reason for this season. I love it! If only I could stay focused on each day only using the words that matter. I don't need to muddy it up with Santa or Elf on the Shelf. I never really explained Santa, the world did that for me. I did however tell her that Santa is just trying to share gifts because it is Jesus's birthday.
We don't have to have all the answers. As Hawk Nelson put it "God, Your voice is the only thing we need to hear".
Dear God, Thank you for the power of the Holy Word, the gift of Jesus, and the gift of the Holy Spirit. You deserve all praise. God, help me to speak only what is good and useful to bring you praise and honor. Help me to be able to sit in silence and listen. I want to hear Your guiding wisdom and I tend to interrupt. Let this blog be a blessing to someone. Give me direction on how to proceed with the blog and writing. Thank you Jesus for living on this wretched earth to be with us. I'm sorry You had to die on the cross but I'm accepting of Your love and forgiveness. In Your name, amen.
Thank you! God Bless!