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I Wanna Go Back

I just want to write a blog entry that I can publish and feel like it lives up to the purpose of creating this blog. So while a few sit in edit mode on the website, for now I am going to reflect more on the message or motive of much of my writing.

Music has been as some would say "my best friend" consistently through my growing up and now. So I may often reflect on words from a song like I'm about to do now. 

Have you heard the song "I Wanna Go Back" by David Dunn? If not, check it out. It talks about the idea of being like a child in the way we approach God. This is a huge part of my intention with a book I wrote during the first year of my daughter's life where I compared new life with new life in Christ. Somewhere the faith of that little child can get lost in the pressures of growing up and living up to whatever the world tells us. I grew up in the church and I still struggled with losing myself in the currents of the world. I'm grateful to have had that foundation to keep me from drowning completely.

There have been times when I thought that after a person was baptized they should be given a personalized book "God Loves You" like the one I made for my daughter from I See Me personalized books. The illustrations are beautiful and it's critical to start your relationship with Jesus out by understanding that God loves you. The way each of us views God and also understand being loved has such a huge impact on our relationship with God but also with others. 

If you take anything away from this message today, take this, Jesus Loves You! God Loves You! But if you weren't loved appropriately growing up, you need to re-learn what true and healthy love is. 

One of the counselors I saw as I was trying to re-learn shared this verse with me, Ephesians 3:16-19 NIV, which I also wrote on the inside of that book I made for my baby girl. The part that she emphasized for me was "And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have the power, together with all the Lord's holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God." 

Dear Lord, Thank you for loving me. Thank you for helping me to finally accept and believe in that love. Please let Your Word reach someone today that may need to learn what it really means to know you and to know what real love is. Let them grasp how wide and long and high and deep is Your love. That verse changed my life along with the various sermons I heard at multiple churches when I was desperate to understand what You wanted me to do. Everywhere I went, I heard you say loud and clear that you loved me and that its ok to cry out to you. So I thank you for listening to me just as I was and just as I am, a very imperfect person who is still growing in my faith. Help me reflect the hope you gave me in all that I do. In Your Powerful Name, Amen.

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