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I Am More

This poem may help you to understand my heart and the purpose of the blog. I actually thought about changing the name of the blog to "More Than Just A Mom" but for now, I am not.

Something I notice lately is how often I say or think, "I just" (I just want to get somewhere on time. I just want you to listen to me so I can keep you safe.), or how often I simply add "just" to a statement. I use it in an exhaustive way but what comes to mind for me is that God is just. That may or may not have anything to do with this poem.

Anyways, here is my poem:

I Am More

I am not the one who has it all together
I am more than a beautifully made up face
I am designed perfectly by the Creator of the universe

I am not the dent in the car or the chip in the paint
I am more valuable than any earthly thing
I am redeemed by a king who died for me

I am not the problems or traumas in my life
I am more than the dysfunction in my relationships
I am a child of God

I am not the clothes I wear
I …

God Only Knows

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God only knows why you are scrolling right now.



Heard the remix of "God Only Knows" by For King and Country with Echosmith driving home after a long day. I'm tired, my kids ate too much candy, and I love music, this song being no exception.

This song could have came out when I was in high school and it would have connected to my heart and soul then. And 21 yrs later there is much more that God only knows about my feelings and struggles. This song's lyrics are timeless, the making of great and classic works of art. Its no surprise it won song of the year.

What is it that God only knows about you? What are you hiding from? running from? afraid of?

Even though you may have heard that God is love and that He loves you regardless of whatever shame weighing on you, it is actually true. Yes, it is! When we actually accept and believe that, life changes.

Walking with God is better than running from Him or anyone else for that matter.

Without God, we fall apart. With God, we …

Go Down Swinging

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I looked out the window and saw snow on my car. Apparently there was a weather report warning of it. Do you pay as much attention to the weather report as I do? It's Ohio in November or was it April 1st, anything is possible. This weather reminds me of a new CD I have loaded in my car. Yes, I still buy Cd's. Luckily, I found this one at a BAM (Books-A-Million) without having to order online. Cd's are becoming a rarity. The CD is The Elements by Toby Mac.

It's been 4 months that I have almost written this blog. What's the hold up? There is not really that much pressure to write, its just my own delay. Or is it the elements of the spiritual warfare getting in my way?

When I'm driving in the car and I listen to this CD, it starts with the song, "The Elements" and I love it! It pumps me up. The part that resonates with me so much lately is the fight, the struggle. For about 6 weeks, I've gotten back into a workout routine and its good. The adrenaline …

Content - Part 1

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Did you pick a word to focus on for 2019? My word of the year for 2019 is "content". My goal for this year is to being satisfied with my life as it is. As a recently divorced single mom that could be a challenge. But nothing is impossible with God. And God is my center. I have this picture in my mind that I am in standing on a rock in the center of His palm in a posture of trust and worship.

This morning God reminded me of His sense of humor. At church, I was expecting to pick up a sign of my word of the year created by a ministry His Words I Speak.  I had ordered one online with a big order from church but when I arrived to pick it up, there were 2 signs for me. I was confused. They said they were a gift too. Turns out my Divorce Care leader had decided to buy one as a gift but they both ended up gifted to me. I love it because now I don't have to debate if I need the sign at home or work. I get to have one in both places. But it cracks me up because just last night, I …

The Fixer

Are you a #fixer
Do you want for everyone to always get along and for there to be peace in your household and family? Seems like a reasonable idea, right? Wrong! Works in theory but not as much in reality. 
At church this past Sunday, the pastor spoke about the messiness of Jesus’s genealogy and how life isn’t perfect or easy. 
Life is hard.
Life is messy. (especially with kids, am I right?)
We, ourselves, cannot fix it. And maybe the situation isn’t meant to be fixed, now or ever. What we should focus on is God and trusting Him to get us through the challenge.
Coincidentally, this sermon occurred on Mother’s Day and there were four women who spoke about what it is like to be a mother. A common thread in the conversation was that a mother may act controlling or manipulative, in the best possible way, of course. A mother wants what is best for her children and has a hard time seeing them struggle or experience pain. It is easy for a mother to jump in and try to help or fix the situat…